IF YOU DO NOT LIKE READING OR TALKING ABOUT MENTAL HEALTH OR IF IT IN ANY WAY TRIGGERS YOU NEGATIVELY, PLEASE BE STRONG WHILE READING THIS.
Also, this is a messy post, but I don’t want to edit anything in it, as it also reflects on my own mental health issues.
May is Mental Health Month and this is something that is very important to me.
I think it’s good to talk about mental health of any kind.
I’ll be the first to talk about it here; I suffer from heavy anxiety and depression.
It’s so bad that some days, even though I am able to get out of bed, I literally am unable to do anything, because I just can’t start and because I feel like a horrible person.
I know, at this point, a lot of people will think “well, just start, pick something up, get up and walk”. If it was this easy, I would have done so a long time ago, but thank you for the tip. I appreciate the thought.
Suffering from anxiety and depression, I have days where I’ll cry from literally anything.
For example, I could literally start crying out of nowhere, even though we’d have a very positive, good conversation. If this happens, I’m sorry. It’s not you, it’s me.
Anxiety attacks are something I have regularly. It sucks. They come out of nowhere, sometimes without warning. By warning I mean, usually I can feel the anxiety rising and I can start doing things to prevent it from getting out of hand. Other times, it’ll punch me in the face like a door and I’ll be taken by surprise and just have to get through it by waiting for it to pass.
Suffering from depression is like constantly doubting yourself, feeling you’re never good enough, feeling like everything and everyone is always going to be against you.
Although it feels negative a lot of the time, I have several good days. It’s kind of like a rollercoaster, it has it’s extreme ups and it has it’s extreme downs.
I know a lot of people struggle and don’t like talking about mental health. I know.
I have been quiet about it for so long, doubting whether or not I have depression, because family has been calling me lazy for the longest of time(thanks for the support, jeez).
I choose to be open about it, because it NEEDS to be talked about. We NEED to be vocal about mental health. Stop making it such an unatural thing, as if it’s some sort of weird thing that is not right. It IS a natural thing, being sad is just as natural as being happy.
NOT talking about it does NOT help anyone struggling with their mental health.
If you struggle with mental health, I am here for you. I think you are amazing, you are more than good enough, in fact, you’re the best. Let’s talk about this.
I love you.